The last time I was here, it was end of 2017. Now, its almost 2019.
I didn't anticipated much this year, I was just trying to get by.
But this year, was different. So different.
The one year I was least hopeful for, turned out to be the year so many things changed.
Grateful. 2018 is the year I'd like to be grateful for.
Despite all the hectic weeks and busy days, this year has been a blessing.
I might say this year is the happiest I've been too.
I re-read all my previous posts -- the ones on here and the ones I've made private.
For once, I can't relate to all the feelings I had while writing those.
All the sorrows, the heartaches, the loneliness and all the sadness.
For once, it felt like reading someone else's writings.
And it felt good.
Maybe things have not changed that much.
Perhaps this year, I have learnt to realize things --
to accept things and be grateful.
Maybe I've learnt to accept myself.
This year helped me grow.
I had less breakdowns and meltdowns this year -- I can't even remember most of them.
And I'm thankful for all the changes that made it happened.
Thankful for the presence of a certain someone, too.
Someone who didn't make me feel like I was a burden, someone who actually wanted to be in my life.
And for once, I'm not scared to fall.
I don't know if any of these would last.
Maybe its temporary, who knows.
But while it's all here, I'm grateful.
And even when it's gone, I am still going to be grateful.
2018 -- maybe this is the peak I'll look back at.
