When I get up in the morning, it feels like a bliss knowing that there's no one home and there's no one I need to answer to. I like it. I like being in my room alone, listening to music, or writing or simply reading a book.
But don't get me wrong, I hate being lonely. The only reason I come down from my room everyday and hang out in the living room is because I don't want my parents to feel lonely. I don't want them to feel like they're alone. I don't think they like being alone as much as I do.
But I do. I really do. I feel so much at ease when I know everyone's out doing their own thing. I can feel my guards lowered and I don't feel as anxious as when there's people in the house. I don't know if that's odd. But being alone makes me feel calm.
I guess that's because I'm the only person I trust. The only person I feel comfortable with is myself. huh.
